So today I went to church just like every other Sunday. It was… Interesting. I don’t know, lately I’ve just been kind of wondering if I should go with my mom’s whole thing with moving to Georgia. Not that me being indecisive is effecting her decision or anything, but I’m sure it plays some role. Maybe it’s what’s best. See I just don’t know… it would be harder to like move now and then get settled in down there and then have to go off to college.
So moving along, my mom is babysitting these two kids… they are quite the rambuntious type (to say the least). Heck, they are crazy. Absoultly insane… and totally do not understand the word “calm.” I thought my brother was bad, but geez, these kids are horrible. Even my brother can’t really handle them. He gets all frustrated and stuff with them and I want to just say like “this is how I feel with you.”
Honestly, I’m tired of being myself. Like that other Everyday Sunday song:
God, I never saw this coming
Did you see this coming around
So tired of myself, so tired of feeling like I let You downHave the angels take a message to the skies
I’m lost without You, it’s no surprise
I’m falling down one more time
Holding back nothingAlways wish I was someone else
Do I make You wish that now?
I’m nothing without You
And maybe the worst part is
That’s been all right with meWill I come up swinging?
Will I stand up stronger?
Will I fall down screaming?
I can’t take this any longer
I don’t understand, but then I took Your hand
And nothing was the same again
Everyday Sunday is certainly the band to listen to when one is feeling like I do right now… *sigh* I just hate everything about, well, everything at this point. Well, I’ve got work to do… Later all.
I’m always here for you, you know that. You are awesome, and I love you! Stay strong, Christ and I are always here for you. That’s a promise.
